Mike and Ploy

It’s frustrating when you think about all the things that could have been in your life. At times you wish that you could be a different person, someone else, somewhere else altogether. At other moments, you can relax and be grateful for all that you have and what has been given to you as a gift. Yet, still in moments of deep thought you are left to wonder what might be the purpose of what goes on in your life – why you have to deal with issues that are redundant and never-ending, why you must face the things you don’t want to face, and why on earth are you persuaded to be somewhere that just makes frustrated over and over again?

I guess the answer isn’t easily found, for if it was, most people would probably be free from the feelings and thoughts I am failing to explain in this one-dimensional page we call a “blog.” It’s far more interesting to ignore the problems you face and to look at the same problems from an outsider’s perspective when it happens to someone else. Yet, how is that any good to yourself?

Sometimes, the answer to your problem can only be envisioned by you and everyone else may deem you crazy. Other times, the answer is one that everyone else sees and you refuse to except. No matter the question, or the answer for that matter of fact, you may find yourself lost in a world that revolves into the same thing over and over again. Day after day, nothing seems to change, and one day you find yourself sitting in front of a computer not knowing where to go next.

It’s kind of pathetic if you think about it. The way you have to fully except that nothing is actually in your own hands – although everything you do is a “choice” that can lead to consequences, who actually knows what those consequences are until they happen? What signs do we actually get about how to live this so-called existence of a life? But most importantly, what madness drives us to do what we do? What are our reasons, what are we called into, what are we envisioning as we take a leap of faith?

Just something to contemplate over before the new dawn breaks. Maybe the choices we make seal our fate into something we can’t control – but is it fair to render ourselves responsible for something that we have no control over the outcome? No control over what others may do? For even though we can chose reactions for ourselves, we cannot predict or control the actions of those around us. We cannot count on their thoughts to be similar to our, we cannot rely on their feelings to experience our happiness or pain, we cannot contemplate the actions their choices will lead to.

The conclusion to this conundrum is not set in stone, and probably will never be. The only thing we can wish for is to be the most that we can be for what we believe in. Be something we are happy to face in the mirror everyday – because if you can’t wake up and look at yourself in the mirror, who will be able to do it for you?!